I Love You

Things i hate:

• I hate how much i always miss you
• I hate leaving you
• I hate how everything reminds me of you
• I hate not having you by my side
• I hate the people who get so see you everyday
• I hate life when your not around
• I hate not being able to hate you sometimes

I don’t understand how you can love someone who is Bi-Polar. My moods change in an instant. I get pissed off and upset over the stupidest little things. I’m slightly abusive.I hate being social able. I make you feel like shit regularly. I’m probably the worst girlfriend on the face of the earth yet somehow you still say you love me. 

I don’t tell you i love you enough and i don’t show you how much you mean to me enough either. When I’m with you everything seems worth it. Everything gets brighter. And I don’t feel like part of me is missing. Your the biggest and most important part of my life. You’ve kept me alive and sane for the last 4 and a half months. Without you I more than likely wouldn’t be alive and would probably have alot more and alot deeper scars. 

I know i’m weird and get extremely paranoid and anxious almost all the time and i’m almost always crying over nothing but somehow none of that ever seems so bad when i’m with you. I hate not being able to see you. I yes i know i’m kinda obsessive/stalkerish but i can’t help it! 

I know this whole thing probably makes no sense to you! I Love You since the first time we kissed till the day i die. I’ll Love you Forever and Always!